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Thursday, July 31, 2008

i hate goodbyes


We gave our favorite priest, my Kuya Father a despedida party last tuesday, 29th of July. He was late, of course, because he went to Ormoc to run some things. He arrived and then we started to eat. He kept asking me to pour water in his glass. He was sick actually. He doesnt even have his voice. hehe
Members of the Tulda gave thank-u and will-miss-you speeches. His mom, Tita Norma and my mother said a few things too. I thought I wouldnt be asked to give him one but Ate Harl shouted my name. GRRRRR! ANyway I gave my speech, I secretly prepared one for fear of being dumbstruck in front of everyone.
It started with a Good evening. And then I told them about how I got pissed and jealous everytime my mother calls me and talks about him or lets me talk to him. The few months that he was here in albuera, he instantly became a special part of their lives. I, ofcourse, got even more pissed. I went on and on.. I told them I never wanted to get close with priests because its not normal for me. they misinterpreted as Kuya Father not normal. hehe everybody laughed. Theyve been laughing evrsince i took hld of the fuckin mic. because Kuya Father never seemed to run out of words to tease me: siaw na manghud, pasaway, maldita.. et cetera. Tita Norma would even make kumot his mouth.. HA-HA! And then I got to the part when I told him that I owe him a lot for being their with my Mother and father when MY brothers and I weren't around. That he filled a space in my mother's being that neither me nor my brothers could ever fill. And almost everyone cried. I was crying when I said that. I never wanted to cry coz I am freakin ugly when I do. hehe
After the speech, He placed the bac of his hand on my forehead, and tease me once more. Im sure gonna miss my Kuya Father.
Then It was time for him to say goodbye. He pinched and it felt like the last time he'd ever will.
He walked out our house without even saying goodbye. He just left.
just like that.
I know it not easy for him to leave us. And its certainly not easy for us either. ITs harder to be the one who gets to be left behind. trust me.
WE went to his new place the morning after. we were late. but better late than never right?
I asked him if we could have our poicture taken and he said yes saying that I might get jealous again.. he kept teasing me and the pic turned out good for me and not for him. he was looking at me, teasing me. and it was caught on cam. hmmmm. he never stops teasing me.
and then we left after a few minutes.

i hate goodbyes