22nd bday-cum-blowout party

A blog made out of anger. An Unworthy piece of paper.

I realized a lot of things while I was spending my morning locked up in my room a day before my birthday.
1. my mother is a real *$%#%!
2. I've known No. 1 since I was a kid. I just didn't know the right term.
3. But no matter what, she's still my mother and I love her.
4. Passing the board exam doesn't give the right to say No. 1 but I'm still saying it anyway.
5. I am really passive-aggressive. this proves that.
6. I know I will regret writing this but I know deep in my heart i will learn a lot of things from this experience.

I also learned a thing or two looking back at my past birthdays.
1. Every year, it's the same situation. Me crying for not getting what I want and surrendering into passive-aggressiveness.
2.And every year, I kept thinking that it's gonna be different (I never learn this!) and as it turned out, it's not.

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Not having what I wanted gave me the chance to realize that what was given to me was what I needed. I know its sounds cliche-ish but it's true. I don't need new clothes but I buy them anyway. i dont' need tons of havaianas but I want them and I'm planning to buy my 9th pair today. I don't need all these material things but I still want them. they're my indulgence. But as far as my indulgences are concerned, i still know the far more important things in life. eventough I still need a little reminding at times.

THOUGHTS

>last night, i attended a Basic Ecclesial Community(BEC) meeting headed by Fr. Intoy. From his talk, I learned that whatever things that happened to us, happened for a reason. I've known that for awhile but last night it struck me. For example, I have the winning lotto number but i didnt made a "taya" for it because I don't do that. Not making a "taya" is a blessing in itself. How? Because if I did win, yes, I will be a multimillionaire but I will also be facing tons of problems. Or, somebody might rob and kill me or kidnap my loved ones.

>Ever since I could remember, that's how I see things. Every single thing happens for a reason. Even death is timely. No matter how young or old, accident or murder or due to disease or d/t old age. When it's time, it's time.

>I also realized that I am happy here. While I was still in college, I used to look for excuses not to go home. Right now, I dont even want to leave. Maybe I just feel this way because I am set to leave next month.
I dont know.

>I love my Manoy Gengen. I want to take care of him. Life has been sort of unkind to him. Partly, it's his choice. He loves me too.

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>My birthday wishes?
-To pass the NLE. check
-To have a good life. check
-Be surrounded by friends and family. check
-happiness all year round. check. uncheck. check.
-among others...

I dont always get what I want but I always get what I need. And that's all I needed to know.

A day in Tacloban

I passed the November 2008 NLE exams. The result was released last friday around 12.30pm. Shy was the first person to tell me the great news. I could't believe it at first so I called her to confirm. ANd yes, I did. We did. Almost all my friends passed. I am so happy and grateful to God. I'll be making a blog about it but not now. later maybe.

Anyway, I finally went to Tac yesterday to meet up with Shy and Jem. I was with Zhai. We went to Shy's very nice house in Abucay (Im not sure) and I was able to see and talk to Fr. Caloy (former priest-in-charge of Damulaan). Then we went to Rafael's farm which is ah-ma-zing! We ate there and took pictures.





Then we were off to San Juanico Bridge. I got scarede. i realized Im scared of heights. haha well, sort of. I got scared really!



I had a great time in Tacloban with Shy, Jem, Jo, Zhai and Tita Yrma. Thankz so much Tita for driving us around your city. It is a beautiful place. I really want to go back sometime soon.

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I may not even be here for my birthday. which I think is okay with me since I haven't tried celebrating it outside Visayas. but it also scares me for (un)known reasons. Im not scared of riding planes. I love riding them. WHat scares me is going out the airport and not knowing what to do and where to go next. And dealing with people I am not close with. But Its the least I could do. to go there that is. Its a small price to pay, really. I just hope if this plan will push through, I'd be contented if not happy. I cant have evrything afterall.

Valentine Weekend

FUEGO! YOu can say that again. ANyway, before Yoyek and Eric left for cebu, we met up for what was our last inuman session for the week. We went home early because they have to wake up extra early too.

LAst Saturday was VALENTINE'S day. We went to town to attend the coronation whatsoever of the V King and Queen. ANd of course, Daisy was our rep for muse of the night. It was like an auction. Basta. And she won. We drank Cali Tan and some of my cousins were drinking RH. Eww. Anyway, we were dancing like crazy.

Diane, Lindsay and I attended a seminar yesterday. We had little sleep and I felt soo groggy the whole day. It was so hot! really! But i didnt complain. afterall I swore I hate the rain and I'd give anything for sunshine. And God gave me what I wanted and I should be happy. And I AM happy.


Another "fun" weekend has passed and next week will be my birthday and the NLE result has yet to be released. I'm nervous to the highest level.
ANd Im having Cephalgia thankyouverymuch.

I have a lot of things on my mind the past days but d/t this headache im not able to think clearly now.

All my plans regarding my party are on hold. :'( d/t unreleased results. so please release it nah para mahuman na amu kalbaryo. (to end our misery.)

What the Weather did to my Brain (Over the Weekend)

1. Forks-like Weather
I feel so pubescent comparing the weather to Forks. Sure its windy and raining 24/7 but it never got lower than the seventies. But its cold enough to wear sweaters and hoodies. I took pictures of the sky because it reminds me of the baseball scene sans the thunderstorm. The wind started around 7am. i got scared something might hit and kill me.
MORNING GRAY SKY


I so envy this kid. All I have is a freakin scarf.



The gray sky lasted forever.

2. It Started with a sip of Margarita
We've been planning a bonding session over margarita for a week. got postponed twice d/t bad weather and church obligations. Finally we did.
This time, Nang Mayeth was the bartender and I was her assistant. Our Margarita was good though the second and third pitchers were anemic-looking. And yes, those weren't enough for my alcoholic clan.



My bro and his berks were drinking RH. I've developed a dislike to that drink over time. They were playing poker and my margarita-intoxicated cousins have long gone home. I taught them the tournament style poker. They ran out of RH and right then and there we decided to go to OC for an extended drinking session. Ronald pushed the multicab till near the river and off to OC we were.
Oh yeah, did i say we snuck out?





1 Kamikazee and 1 Japanese slippers later, we helped ourselves with kikiam, squidballs and siomai. At 2am, we were on our way home. half a kilometer away from our house, Ronald was once again pushing the cab to its place.
We were laughing like hyenas on mute.
After we brushed and washed, mother opened their door and Zhai quickly turned the lights off and prayed to all the saints in heaven they wont find out.




3. SUNDAY MORNING
I had fresh coconut and hotcake for BF. Nanay said, "Dugay man mo natug. Mga alas 2 na toh paggawas nko. Mao sa'y pagpawng sa suga."Knowing look for lindsay and I tried to hide my smile.

4. SCATTERED RAINSHOWERS
The weekend ended with just that. Sometimes I wonder if my mother has advanced alzheimer's. JOKE. She forgot about the FLA V party. She only remembered after the 4.30pm mass. We barely made it.



And I did what I do best.
ESCAPE. ESCAPE. ESCAPE.
Eric played hooker.
I tried.
I ended up looking maternal.


RAMBLINGS:
Damn the weather. It was raining last sat and the next day it was filled with sunshine.
The weather's giving me a whiplash.
anyhoo.
I've become so domesticated I Hate it.
Cleaning our shared bathroom is understandable because it is my responsibility. plus we take turns.
But cooking?
And wasjing dishes without reklamo and preparing food for my bro is so beyond me.
Really.
Since when did I care if he's hungry?
His cooking tastes beter than mine.
I prepare his food and baon. ANd cleaning the bathroom has increased to five times a week.
AM i becoming OC?
Oh yeah. They're planning my Kiddie party. without me.
Mañanita too.
They already ionvited people. O.M.G.
And by people I meant church people.
I hope they eat turtle and shark.
NO RED MEAT.
It's my birtday! LET'S abstain!
\fake enthusiasm/
details of my kiddie party will be posted as soon as they become official.
LAYSH.




post script
please do watch out for my weekly top list of whatev. hehe la lang.

25 Random things about me

i didnt plan on making my own list after reading other people's. But I can not seem to upload pictures on any of my blog accounts so I'm making my own now.

1. I love taking pictures every chance I get.

2. I'm so addicted to online shopping that I ended up with no closet space anymore.

3. I got contact dermatitis from nightswimming many sundays ago. talk about KARMA.

4. My parents and Msgr. Jaime have been urging me for months now to attend the Lector-Cantor Seminar. I said I'll think about it, which I still havent.

5. Everyday I think about exercising but laziness always gets the best of me.

6. I love my dark skin but sometimes I wish I'm lighter.

7. I'm becoming OC because of boredom.

8. I clean our shared bathroom 5x a week.

9. When I become filthy rich I want to build a high-tech mansion.

10. I have to send some of my cousins to school when I become really rich.

11. I'm going to buy my brothers their dream cars.

12. I dont want to suffer a lot when I die. But I want to be prepared so I'm opting for Cancer.

13. I love eating chocolates and bread.

14. I love to jog but I hate waking up early.

15. I live near the sea but I'm not a good swimmer.

16. I've been sneaking out and having drinking sessions with cousins from town the past weeks.

17. I didn't live with my parents till I was in Sophomore College.

18. I enjoy experimenting with food and I eat all of them.

19. I'm no alcoholic but I love drinking.

20. I don't want to go to the city without at least putting on mascara.

21. I read a lot of books.

22. I used to read those tagalog pocketbooks in high school and sometime in college.

23. Sometimes I drift away during mass. I daydream too much.

24. I still have temper tantrums if I dont get what I want.

25. Little things/ gestures make me happy.

(un)eventful events

a lot has happened the past weeks that i cannot seem to keep up. I went to Cebu for the Sinulog with my bro and cuz. I partied with Eric and some of his friends. We had fun really, though those plans were all last minute ones. nonetheless, it was SInulog fun.

A couple of days after, ive finally decided to have my hair cut. at the last minute. hehe It was a nerve-racking enough experience for me. Im not the type who lets just anybody cut my hair. Well. I was that in haiskul but i never cared before. For two years now ive been sporting a short 'do. Maybe a few months from now, I'd finally decide to grow it. maybe.

After a week in Cebu, I went home with Fritz and Nanay to attend a funeral. And I've been home a week when I went back to Cevou with my parents to go to Simala with Fr. Soon. he invited us. Almost all the priests in the Archdiocese of Palo were in the city that week for their annual formation. They stayed in Talavera House of prayer. It was beautiful and serene there. No wonder.
We went home that same night. If it weren't for my new Havs, I'd be pissed big time.

Now let's see, what else happened...

Oh yeah, we went night swimming again at Yoyek's Lola's pool last sunday. It was good fun.

And finally, we had our fishing boat blessed last monday. It was heartwarming.