15th and 16th

25 weeks till I pop. Oh dear.

The past week has been filled with dizziness and I haven't been eating much. I rarely get hungry so God help me. I should be gaining a pound a week or whatever but my weight is just about the same the past three weeks. I am not quite sure whether that's a good thing or not.

Mood Swings. What a funny thing.
I was eating lunch a few minutes back and was watching Legally Blonde. Dammit, I was crying uncontrollably when Elle answered the professor's question correctly. Dammit. Even the over-dramatized tv commercial puts me to tears. Pwede muhilak tungod aning mood swings?

This is my tummy now. I wish it's bigger. Haha I am just so excited to be huge and it's okay to be big because I'm pregnant.. No one would tell me to go on a diet. hahaha

16 Weeks.

The past few days, I just feel so energetic. And of course, like any other good thing in the world, it has an end. At the end of the day, I feel like dragging myself to bed and just sleep my life away. Haha

I've been trying to listen to my baby's heartbeat thru a stethoscope. But I just can't. Either I have lost all my nursing skills or the steth is just a tad old. I've missed my check-up this month but I am booked to have all kinds of tests for weeks 16-19. I can not wait for my check up on December. Maybe then we'd find out the gender of my little pumpkin. We better. It's just a bit too expensive for me.

I spent these weeks, looking for baby things online and taking note of the things that I will order as soon as I get home to Filo. I can not believe I made a year-long list for things that Saige/Jev Matthew will need. Haha Am I a bit too excited? Haha Maybe. I also made plans with Icon last September with regards to my photo shoot as soon as my belly's big enough to be photographed. Now that's set, all I need is the confirmation of everything and I'd be a happy preggo. I'm just glad that I am not cranky like other pregnant women. I guess, Jev's one helluva lucky guy that my mood swings does not involve anger. hahaha

2013 is really a big year for the both of us. And I can not wait for things to take place and for everything to be official.

I guess that's it for the past couple of weeks. I am looking forward to a bigger belly and a healthy baby.

xx,
dee

Fourteenth

I am now on my 14th week of pregnancy and is officially on my second trimester. I have yet to have myself checked up and I truly dread paying the bills. Medical bills, professional fees, diagnostic exams-- the bane of my existence in Australia. They cost hundreds of dollars. Ultrasounds cost 4-5 times more than it does in the Ormoc. And yes, the cost per check up is well times 25!!! Haaay naku! Kamahal na man lang.

As each week progresses, I feel like my energy is waning, my nausea is back and some occasional bouts of vomiting. There are still days that I just want to stay in bed but as soon as I look at those beautiful eyes of dear Katherine and seeing how hungry she is, well, I just gotta get up and give her milk. This kid amazes me so much. She can be left alone, on her own without so much as attention from the grown ups around her, as long as she's full, she has toys to keep her company, she 's about the most content baby girl in the world. She doesn't even complain if she's hungry. She waits for me to wake up. Sounds like someone I know. Haha Her Mummy. She never wakes me up. I hope my baby's like so that I could still get some sleep, even if it's just two hours.

Ahhh sleep. I consider it a luxury now. I am always sleepy but I can't seem to put myself to sleep. As a result, I get headaches. I am enjoying my pregnancy, though, I am a bit impatient for my tummy to show. Hey Baby, are you even growing?!?! It's just that given the knowledge and experiences I have with pregnant women, labor and giving birth, I am just about as anxious as the next pregnant woman without the medical or nursing degree. The discomfort of the growing tummy, the sleepless nights, the dizziness, the constipation, heartburn--- is enough to make me cringe at the very thought. But still, I can not wait for it to grow big. Just big, not any bigger or ginormous like some preggos.

Happy are those who have given birth this month, including my very good friend, Mila, who delivered a very healthy baby girl last October 27th. They can now rest, well, they can at least lie on their back just to wake up in the middle of the night to feed their bubs. Basta, they're free from the big tummy and the discomforts it brings, me, well, I am still on my way and there's no way of escaping. I guess I just have to enjoy and savor everything since it'd be a looooooong time until I would subject myself to all the discomforts and the negative side of pregnancy. Haha Don't get me wrong, I love my being pregnant, I just hate the signs and symptoms. Imagine wanting to eat everything and then throwing them all up. That's just wrong. Lucky are those women who feel nothing when they are/were pregnant. As for me, my mum had it, my aunts did too. So I ain't that lucky, afterall. But Lucky enough to be given the chance to be pregnant and soon to be a mum.

I can not wait for my tummy to show so that I can post photos already. hahaha excited lang jud.

Anyway, here's a few tips to those who are preggos with all the dreaded symptoms.

• I know we're always hungry but eating big meals won't help. Try eating 5-6 times a day. Eat fruits or veggies. Make sure you wash them properly.
• Drink 8-10 glasses of water a day. But don't drink one glass in one gulp. What I do to ensure that I am getting at least 1.5 liters of water per day is that, I get a glass of water and drink it within an hour or two. A glass measures from 200-300 ml. A surefire way is using a 500ml or 1L bottle and bringing it anywhere and everywhere. Bahalag bug-at basta makainom lang ug water. :-D
• I haven't been drinking ANMUM for over 2 weeks now since it makes me throw up, so to make sure that I am still getting all the nutrients, vitamins and minerals that I need everyday, I try, as much as possible to eat green leafy vegetables (spinach, broccoli), yellow capsicum, pasteurized cheese, basically all the healthy foods, we rarely eat unhealthy food here so I'm safe. And I drink juices and pasteurized milk. REMEMBER: The darker the color of the fruits and veggies, the more nutrients it has. So eating a ripe papaya is better than eating an apple.
• I'm pretty sure every pregnant woman weighs herself every morning and dreads the weight gain. Don't skip meals or go on a diet. Please. 
• Exercise. Not the lose-weight exercise but walking and yoga is more than enough. I only walk 30minutes per day or sometimes even more if I have extra energy. As long as you keep on moving, not just sit around the house and eat all the junk you can get your hands on.

I guess these are some of the things I learned the past 3 months. I'm just thankful that I don't crave chocolates or other sweets and junks. Because if I do, good luck to me. I'd be 300lbs by the end of the year! 

So, i am on week 14th. Six more weeks til week 20. What's on the 20th week? Well, let's just say that it'd be the perfect time for me to feel my baby move for the first time. Ahhh. The joys and wonders of pregnancy.

xx

Dee

Lucky 13

I have reached the level of boredom. I have come to point where I have nothing else to do and nowhere else to go.

Anyway, I am on my 13th week of pregnancy, 13 weeks and 3 days, to be exact. Now I am hungrier than I've ever been in my entire life. I eat and eat and eat. Thankfully, my weight had come to a standstill after gaining 3 kilos my first week here. I guess it was understandable since I haven't been eating back in the Philippines due to the dreaded first trimester symptoms, nausea and vomiting. I still have them occasionally. And I just keep on burping all day. And night. And oh, the heartburn. I heard it's gonna get worse as my pregnancy progresses.. Oh dear God. Help me. I don't like eating before going to sleep but it's the only way for me to stop the gurgling and the painful bouts of heartburn.
It pains me to get up and go to the bathroom in the middle of the night because I am currently experiencing urinary frequency. Supposedly, this symptom appears during the first trimester. But hey, better late than never, right?
And yes, linea negra appeared right on schedule. Mine's a bit faint yet. Not that visible but clear enough to see the dark line across my tummy. I know, I just know that the next worst thing is for the horrible stretch marks to appear. Yes, scratching the tummy does that but even if you don't scratch, stretchmarks still appear. haaaay. I'm still not showing yet.. Beer belly still.
There are days when I am oozing with energy. And then some days, I wish day was not invented so that I could just stay in bed forever.
We've picked out names for our baby already. We decided, well, I decided on the boy's name. But if it's a girl, I haven't decided on a second name just yet. But soon.

Yesterday, I went to the mall and walk around and watched a movie. But before all that, I looked for baby stuff. There are a lot of nice baby things that I wish I could buy now. But, I really have to control the urge since I still don't know it's gender. Haaaaay. I wish everything would go on sale so that I could buy heaps of stuff for my little bugger. But I have yet to know if it's a girl or boy.

Another thing, on our way home, just a few blocks away, we almost got into a car crash. It was the scariest 5 seconds of my life. It all happened so fast and I'm just thankful that the brakes work. Only the two cars hit each other and we were spared. There was only one thing on my mind, keep my baby safe.

oh well. life.

Bye, Bye First Trimester

I am 12 weeks now and boy, oh boy am I thankful that I am well on my way to the second trimester with the nausea and vomiting, food aversion and mood swings all behind me now. The past few weeks have been torture for me since I couldn't eat all the healthy foods I need to eat not just for myself but for the growing little bugger inside me. All I ever wanted was a healthy and safe pregnancy and of course, a baby with 5 fingers on each hand, 10 toes on each foot, 2 eyes, ears, a mouth and nose. In other words, a very healthy and very complete baby, NO MORE, NO LESS. I mean, who doesn't? No parents would want a sickly baby or something.

But I have a new symptom: dizziness. Or maybe I'm just hungry all the time? I don't know. Whatever the cause, whenever I eat, it somehow subsides.

Since I don't feel nauseous or I don't have the urge to run to the bathroom every minute, I don't feel that much preggo. I mean, I'm not showing just yet. Well, I'm finding it hard to button my shorts and pants but still, to everyone on the outside, it still looks like my beer belly. HAHA. But when I do touch it and palpate it gently, I can feel that my little peanut is just inside, somersaulting its way into being a baby.

Haaaay. I know that this pregnancy is unplanned but the joy it brings to me and Jev. It's not easy, it will never get easy. Things will get harder. But I know we can surpass everything that'd come our way. What other people think do not matter anymore. As long as I have my parents' support and love, they can just eat their opinions out. Just don't let me hear you/them say negative things about my pregnancy and everything that's going on in my life. You can all kiss my ass.

I still have a few hurts and pains from what I heard about the things other people say. But I'm trying not to let it get to me. All I know is that nobody likes you. Period.

On the lighter note, I am slowly exercising to better help me in my impending labor. I know that I still have a long way but you don't build up endurance and strength over night. It'd take time and there's no better time than now.

And, aside from graduating from the dreaded first trimester, I am also saying goodbye to crackers only diet. HAHA. Boo-yah!! I can eat whatever I want in small amounts. I do not overeat because I have a very sensitive tummy now. And I really don't want to be a whale or my baby to be ginormous. I just want him to be average in size and weight. And finally, I am gaining weight!! Why am so happy about it? Because the past 5 weeks, I have lost 6 kilos and I think it's about time that I start gaining, don't you think so love? But not too much.

Ahhhh. The joys of pregnancy and motherhood. I am just so excited to buy things for my cutie patootie but I have to control myself. I have yet to find out the gender of my baby. Maybe I should wait til I get home to Filo because an ultrasound here costs a lot. I mean A LOT. I can buy a week's supply of food with it. Haha.

I just feel so lucky to be given this chance to be a mother. My Nanay can not wait for my baby to be born so that karma can start showing me just how difficult I was to raise. HAHAHA. I will raise my kid not to be a social climber and a gold digger. unlike some people. *wink

toodles.

Pregnancy and whatnot

You got that right.
I'd be blogging about my current state more than anything in this world. Right now, I am 8 weeks and 2 days. I still have roughly about 30-32 weeks more. Oh boy!!! Or girl?

Anyway, lucky are those women who go through their pregnancy smoothly because I don't remember a day that i actually felt better or normal or at the very least not queasy since I got preggo.

Nausea, vomiting, food aversions, hypersensitivity to certain smells-- you name it, I got it all. My current bff right now is my bed. Or maybe because I am experiencing pregnancy fatigue. All I know is that I just want to stay in bed all day and all night long.

Sunday
September 30, 2012

I am 9 weeks today. My baby has graduated from embryonic to fetal stage. He/She is officially a fetus now. Yay! And it's taking on a more human look. Unfortunately for me, I haven't graduated from the first trimester signs and symptoms just yet. As far as I know, nausea and vomiting is getting worse. I can't seem to hold down everything I take in. I'm hungry all the time. I have heartburn. And if I do eat a little, I just throw up everything, even if it's water. I still want to sleep all the time. I burp all the time. I pass gas. I want to eat sweets but they just make me throw up. What to do?!?!

Trust me, I've tried everything I've learned in college. Small frequent feedings, eating crackers, no oily foods, etc etc etc. Nothing works. Sometimes I feel like I have reached my limit. Or so I thought.

I'm always thirsty, by the way. I want to drink gallons and gallons of water. But I can't. Everything that I put inside my tummy makes me throw up. Haaaay.

Sometimes I feel like I do not have the right to complain because I did this. You know, there are those moments that we need our moms because we feel like we can't take all these symptoms at once. But we just can't.

I think, aside from a broken heart, a scraped knee, or a wounded pride, pregnancy signs and symptoms, labor and delivery are also one of the events in our lives that we need our mothers. I just hope that our mothers, instead of laughing at us, enjoying our pains, should empathize with us. They've been through this. We need their support. If they don't have anything therapeutic to say, SOMETIMES, SILENCE is.

I just hope these symptoms that are holding me down the past 4 weeks would subside in the next 3 weeks. Please lang because I feel dehydrated, I am very hungry, I am always tired and I feel like biting everyone's head off. I haven't gotten out of the house in 2 weeks because the sun just makes me dizzy and nauseous.

On a lighter note:
Everything about this quote really holds true.

"What goes around, comes around."

That is all.

,
dee