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Friday, April 13, 2012

Epiphany on Easter

Love, Like everything else in this world, is fleeting. I am very much aware that when it comes to loving, the possibility of pain is inevitable. Now, I have reached the point of no return, where I am so in love with someone that I am willing to defy almost everything just to continue to have that love.

And while my heart is continuing to hold on to this love, my mind is trying to grasp to whatever's left of my sanity. And like any other woman in love, I'm trying to make things work both ways, practically and emotionally. But vulnerable as I am, I'm pretty sure that I will follow what my heart dictates. i will try to make it work.

Sometimes i wish I am not my parents' daughter. They just expect too much from me. Is it even possible to follow what my heart tells me? Or should I just listen to what they think is right for me? I don't want to wake up one day, regretting why I did not follow my heart and instead followed what they thought was right.

I have seen and met a lot of people and they have their own stories to tell. I don't want to be like the ones who sold their souls to the devil for a million bucks and realizing one day that money really can't buy happiness.

Of course, material things can make us happy. But until when? Would having Hermes, Gucci, Louis Vuitton help you sleep at night? Or sleeping in the arms f the one you love would?

But at the end of the day, the decision is up to me: who should i put first, my family's happiness and security, or mine?

Which weighs more?

I just hope that i won't reach the point wherein I have to choose between the two.

Yes, I am idealistic that way. I wish to have everything. I dream to be happy with the one I love and to make my family satisfied as well.

But are they willing to give up their dreams for my happiness?