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Friday, November 23, 2012

2012: What am I thankful for?

Happy Thanksgiving!


I almost forgot that its that time of year once again to celebrate all the good things that has happened to us.

This year, aside from having a healthy body and mind, I am thankful for a few special things that God has given me.

Firstly, I am thankful that I was brought up the way I was. Some might disagree but I've given this some thought and I say it has been beneficial for me. It has made me see that it's not always about having heaps of money or new clothes or gadgets. It's about making the most of everything that you have. Yes, these things can make you happy. But until when?

Secondly, the chance to live in Australia. Even for a few months. Being here has opened my eyes to a lot of things. It's true that you will never understand unless you are experiencing it yourself. Living away from home is harder in itself. How much more if you're living in another country with totally different cultures and traditions. Another thing i learned is that it's never easy working/living abroad. Sometimes, it only looks good in pictures. One thing that families left in the Philippines don't understand is that they kept on asking money without so much as a thought on how many meals, etc. that their relative opted not to eat or in some cases, just ate canned goods or noodles just to give in to their vices and caprices. I am more than thankful that I was not raised in a wealthy environment because of that, I learned and I know how to appreciate what I have and make the most of it.

Thirdly, I am grateful that I have these wonderful people around me, my parents, brothers, aunts, uncles, cousins and a few great friends. I thank them for their understanding in trying times and those moments when I was too much to handle and of course, with my recent situation. I am thankful they reacted the way they did, accepted both me and my baby and of course, the baby daddy, Jev. I know some people have a lot to say but i already reached a point where I don't give an eff anymore.

Fourthly, I am thankful that I met a wonderful person who showed me that not all men are jerks and assholes. He made me believe in forever once again.

And last but not the least, I am thankful that I am given this opportunity to be a mum, to be someone that a little person could always look up to. I may not inspire a lot of people but I know I could be an inspiration to my lil bub. I may not make a big difference in this world but I know I can definitely make a huge difference in the life of my baby.

I am thankful for these things that I have now for without them, I am not where I am, not who I am today.

thank you Lord for always being there for me and my loved ones.

Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends and family!!! I wish i was home to celebrate it with everyone.

Xx,
Dee

Friday, November 16, 2012

15th and 16th

25 weeks till I pop. Oh dear.

The past week has been filled with dizziness and I haven't been eating much. I rarely get hungry so God help me. I should be gaining a pound a week or whatever but my weight is just about the same the past three weeks. I am not quite sure whether that's a good thing or not.

Mood Swings. What a funny thing.
I was eating lunch a few minutes back and was watching Legally Blonde. Dammit, I was crying uncontrollably when Elle answered the professor's question correctly. Dammit. Even the over-dramatized tv commercial puts me to tears. Pwede muhilak tungod aning mood swings?


This is my tummy now. I wish it's bigger. Haha I am just so excited to be huge and it's okay to be big because I'm pregnant.. No one would tell me to go on a diet. hahaha

16 Weeks.

The past few days, I just feel so energetic. And of course, like any other good thing in the world, it has an end. At the end of the day, I feel like dragging myself to bed and just sleep my life away. Haha

I've been trying to listen to my baby's heartbeat thru a stethoscope. But I just can't. Either I have lost all my nursing skills or the steth is just a tad old. I've missed my check-up this month but I am booked to have all kinds of tests for weeks 16-19. I can not wait for my check up on December. Maybe then we'd find out the gender of my little pumpkin. We better. It's just a bit too expensive for me.

I spent these weeks, looking for baby things online and taking note of the things that I will order as soon as I get home to Filo. I can not believe I made a year-long list for things that Saige/Jev Matthew will need. Haha Am I a bit too excited? Haha Maybe. I also made plans with Icon last September with regards to my photo shoot as soon as my belly's big enough to be photographed. Now that's set, all I need is the confirmation of everything and I'd be a happy preggo. I'm just glad that I am not cranky like other pregnant women. I guess, Jev's one helluva lucky guy that my mood swings does not involve anger. hahaha

2013 is really a big year for the both of us. And I can not wait for things to take place and for everything to be official.

I guess that's it for the past couple of weeks. I am looking forward to a bigger belly and a healthy baby.

xx,
dee

Friday, November 2, 2012

Fourteenth

I am now on my 14th week of pregnancy and is officially on my second trimester. I have yet to have myself checked up and I truly dread paying the bills. Medical bills, professional fees, diagnostic exams-- the bane of my existence in Australia. They cost hundreds of dollars. Ultrasounds cost 4-5 times more than it does in the Ormoc. And yes, the cost per check up is well times 25!!! Haaay naku! Kamahal na man lang.

As each week progresses, I feel like my energy is waning, my nausea is back and some occasional bouts of vomiting. There are still days that I just want to stay in bed but as soon as I look at those beautiful eyes of dear Katherine and seeing how hungry she is, well, I just gotta get up and give her milk. This kid amazes me so much. She can be left alone, on her own without so much as attention from the grown ups around her, as long as she's full, she has toys to keep her company, she 's about the most content baby girl in the world. She doesn't even complain if she's hungry. She waits for me to wake up. Sounds like someone I know. Haha Her Mummy. She never wakes me up. I hope my baby's like so that I could still get some sleep, even if it's just two hours.

Ahhh sleep. I consider it a luxury now. I am always sleepy but I can't seem to put myself to sleep. As a result, I get headaches. I am enjoying my pregnancy, though, I am a bit impatient for my tummy to show. Hey Baby, are you even growing?!?! It's just that given the knowledge and experiences I have with pregnant women, labor and giving birth, I am just about as anxious as the next pregnant woman without the medical or nursing degree. The discomfort of the growing tummy, the sleepless nights, the dizziness, the constipation, heartburn--- is enough to make me cringe at the very thought. But still, I can not wait for it to grow big. Just big, not any bigger or ginormous like some preggos.

Happy are those who have given birth this month, including my very good friend, Mila, who delivered a very healthy baby girl last October 27th. They can now rest, well, they can at least lie on their back just to wake up in the middle of the night to feed their bubs. Basta, they're free from the big tummy and the discomforts it brings, me, well, I am still on my way and there's no way of escaping. I guess I just have to enjoy and savor everything since it'd be a looooooong time until I would subject myself to all the discomforts and the negative side of pregnancy. Haha Don't get me wrong, I love my being pregnant, I just hate the signs and symptoms. Imagine wanting to eat everything and then throwing them all up. That's just wrong. Lucky are those women who feel nothing when they are/were pregnant. As for me, my mum had it, my aunts did too. So I ain't that lucky, afterall. But Lucky enough to be given the chance to be pregnant and soon to be a mum.

I can not wait for my tummy to show so that I can post photos already. hahaha excited lang jud.

Anyway, here's a few tips to those who are preggos with all the dreaded symptoms.


  • I know we're always hungry but eating big meals won't help. Try eating 5-6 times a day. Eat fruits or veggies. Make sure you wash them properly.
  • Drink 8-10 glasses of water a day. But don't drink one glass in one gulp. What I do to ensure that I am getting at least 1.5 liters of water per day is that, I get a glass of water and drink it within an hour or two. A glass measures from 200-300 ml. A surefire way is using a 500ml or 1L bottle and bringing it anywhere and everywhere. Bahalag bug-at basta makainom lang ug water. :-D
  • I haven't been drinking ANMUM for over 2 weeks now since it makes me throw up, so to make sure that I am still getting all the nutrients, vitamins and minerals that I need everyday, I try, as much as possible to eat green leafy vegetables (spinach, broccoli), yellow capsicum, pasteurized cheese, basically all the healthy foods, we rarely eat unhealthy food here so I'm safe. And I drink juices and pasteurized milk. REMEMBER: The darker the color of the fruits and veggies, the more nutrients it has. So eating a ripe papaya is better than eating an apple.
  • I'm pretty sure every pregnant woman weighs herself every morning and dreads the weight gain. Don't skip meals or go on a diet. Please. 
  • Exercise. Not the lose-weight exercise but walking and yoga is more than enough. I only walk 30minutes per day or sometimes even more if I have extra energy. As long as you keep on moving, not just sit around the house and eat all the junk you can get your hands on.
I guess these are some of the things I learned the past 3 months. I'm just thankful that I don't crave chocolates or other sweets and junks. Because if I do, good luck to me. I'd be 300lbs by the end of the year! 

So, i am on week 14th. Six more weeks til week 20. What's on the 20th week? Well, let's just say that it'd be the perfect time for me to feel my baby move for the first time. Ahhh. The joys and wonders of pregnancy.

xx
Dee