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Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Lucky 13

I have reached the level of boredom. I have come to point where I have nothing else to do and nowhere else to go.

Anyway, I am on my 13th week of pregnancy, 13 weeks and 3 days, to be exact. Now I am hungrier than I've ever been in my entire life. I eat and eat and eat. Thankfully, my weight had come to a standstill after gaining 3 kilos my first week here. I guess it was understandable since I haven't been eating back in the Philippines due to the dreaded first trimester symptoms, nausea and vomiting. I still have them occasionally. And I just keep on burping all day. And night. And oh, the heartburn. I heard it's gonna get worse as my pregnancy progresses.. Oh dear God. Help me. I don't like eating before going to sleep but it's the only way for me to stop the gurgling and the painful bouts of heartburn.
It pains me to get up and go to the bathroom in the middle of the night because I am currently experiencing urinary frequency. Supposedly, this symptom appears during the first trimester. But hey, better late than never, right?
And yes, linea negra appeared right on schedule. Mine's a bit faint yet. Not that visible but clear enough to see the dark line across my tummy. I know, I just know that the next worst thing is for the horrible stretch marks to appear. Yes, scratching the tummy does that but even if you don't scratch, stretchmarks still appear. haaaay. I'm still not showing yet.. Beer belly still.
There are days when I am oozing with energy. And then some days, I wish day was not invented so that I could just stay in bed forever.
We've picked out names for our baby already. We decided, well, I decided on the boy's name. But if it's a girl, I haven't decided on a second name just yet. But soon.

Yesterday, I went to the mall and walk around and watched a movie. But before all that, I looked for baby stuff. There are a lot of nice baby things that I wish I could buy now. But, I really have to control the urge since I still don't know it's gender. Haaaaay. I wish everything would go on sale so that I could buy heaps of stuff for my little bugger. But I have yet to know if it's a girl or boy.

Another thing, on our way home, just a few blocks away, we almost got into a car crash. It was the scariest 5 seconds of my life. It all happened so fast and I'm just thankful that the brakes work. Only the two cars hit each other and we were spared. There was only one thing on my mind, keep my baby safe.

oh well. life.

Friday, October 19, 2012

Bye, Bye First Trimester

I am 12 weeks now and boy, oh boy am I thankful that I am well on my way to the second trimester with the nausea and vomiting, food aversion and mood swings all behind me now. The past few weeks have been torture for me since I couldn't eat all the healthy foods I need to eat not just for myself but for the growing little bugger inside me. All I ever wanted was a healthy and safe pregnancy and of course, a baby with 5 fingers on each hand, 10 toes on each foot, 2 eyes, ears, a mouth and nose. In other words, a very healthy and very complete baby, NO MORE, NO LESS. I mean, who doesn't? No parents would want a sickly baby or something.

But I have a new symptom: dizziness. Or maybe I'm just hungry all the time? I don't know. Whatever the cause, whenever I eat, it somehow subsides.

Since I don't feel nauseous or I don't have the urge to run to the bathroom every minute, I don't feel that much preggo. I mean, I'm not showing just yet. Well, I'm finding it hard to button my shorts and pants but still, to everyone on the outside, it still looks like my beer belly. HAHA. But when I do touch it and palpate it gently, I can feel that my little peanut is just inside, somersaulting its way into being a baby.

Haaaay. I know that this pregnancy is unplanned but the joy it brings to me and Jev. It's not easy, it will never get easy. Things will get harder. But I know we can surpass everything that'd come our way. What other people think do not matter anymore. As long as I have my parents' support and love, they can just eat their opinions out. Just don't let me hear you/them say negative things about my pregnancy and everything that's going on in my life. You can all kiss my ass.

I still have a few hurts and pains from what I heard about the things other people say. But I'm trying not to let it get to me. All I know is that nobody likes you. Period.

On the lighter note, I am slowly exercising to better help me in my impending labor. I know that I still have a long way but you don't build up endurance and strength over night. It'd take time and there's no better time than now.

And, aside from graduating from the dreaded first trimester, I am also saying goodbye to crackers only diet. HAHA. Boo-yah!! I can eat whatever I want in small amounts. I do not overeat because I have a very sensitive tummy now. And I really don't want to be a whale or my baby to be ginormous. I just want him to be average in size and weight. And finally, I am gaining weight!! Why am so happy about it? Because the past 5 weeks, I have lost 6 kilos and I think it's about time that I start gaining, don't you think so love? But not too much.

Ahhhh. The joys of pregnancy and motherhood. I am just so excited to buy things for my cutie patootie but I have to control myself. I have yet to find out the gender of my baby. Maybe I should wait til I get home to Filo because an ultrasound here costs a lot. I mean A LOT. I can buy a week's supply of food with it. Haha.

I just feel so lucky to be given this chance to be a mother. My Nanay can not wait for my baby to be born so that karma can start showing me just how difficult I was to raise. HAHAHA. I will raise my kid not to be a social climber and a gold digger. unlike some people. *wink

toodles.