Bye, Bye First Trimester

I am 12 weeks now and boy, oh boy am I thankful that I am well on my way to the second trimester with the nausea and vomiting, food aversion and mood swings all behind me now. The past few weeks have been torture for me since I couldn't eat all the healthy foods I need to eat not just for myself but for the growing little bugger inside me. All I ever wanted was a healthy and safe pregnancy and of course, a baby with 5 fingers on each hand, 10 toes on each foot, 2 eyes, ears, a mouth and nose. In other words, a very healthy and very complete baby, NO MORE, NO LESS. I mean, who doesn't? No parents would want a sickly baby or something.

But I have a new symptom: dizziness. Or maybe I'm just hungry all the time? I don't know. Whatever the cause, whenever I eat, it somehow subsides.

Since I don't feel nauseous or I don't have the urge to run to the bathroom every minute, I don't feel that much preggo. I mean, I'm not showing just yet. Well, I'm finding it hard to button my shorts and pants but still, to everyone on the outside, it still looks like my beer belly. HAHA. But when I do touch it and palpate it gently, I can feel that my little peanut is just inside, somersaulting its way into being a baby.

Haaaay. I know that this pregnancy is unplanned but the joy it brings to me and Jev. It's not easy, it will never get easy. Things will get harder. But I know we can surpass everything that'd come our way. What other people think do not matter anymore. As long as I have my parents' support and love, they can just eat their opinions out. Just don't let me hear you/them say negative things about my pregnancy and everything that's going on in my life. You can all kiss my ass.

I still have a few hurts and pains from what I heard about the things other people say. But I'm trying not to let it get to me. All I know is that nobody likes you. Period.

On the lighter note, I am slowly exercising to better help me in my impending labor. I know that I still have a long way but you don't build up endurance and strength over night. It'd take time and there's no better time than now.

And, aside from graduating from the dreaded first trimester, I am also saying goodbye to crackers only diet. HAHA. Boo-yah!! I can eat whatever I want in small amounts. I do not overeat because I have a very sensitive tummy now. And I really don't want to be a whale or my baby to be ginormous. I just want him to be average in size and weight. And finally, I am gaining weight!! Why am so happy about it? Because the past 5 weeks, I have lost 6 kilos and I think it's about time that I start gaining, don't you think so love? But not too much.

Ahhhh. The joys of pregnancy and motherhood. I am just so excited to buy things for my cutie patootie but I have to control myself. I have yet to find out the gender of my baby. Maybe I should wait til I get home to Filo because an ultrasound here costs a lot. I mean A LOT. I can buy a week's supply of food with it. Haha.

I just feel so lucky to be given this chance to be a mother. My Nanay can not wait for my baby to be born so that karma can start showing me just how difficult I was to raise. HAHAHA. I will raise my kid not to be a social climber and a gold digger. unlike some people. *wink

toodles.