sometimes there is pain in loving.
and just when you are so sure about how you feel, he makes you feel that he isn't.
(He's not that into you, or hes too busy having fun to think about you. boo-hoo)
I am in love with him. He told me feels the same way. It was the other way around actually. What happened to me last year or almost a couple of years ago had left a teeny bit of fear in me. the fear of getting hurt and having my heart broken into tiny pieces. I told him that. He got curious about it. And after everything that has happened, he still wanted to be with me.
I never asked for someone to love. I never prayed for anyone special to come into my life. But as fate would have it, someone turned my world around and it has never turned the same way again. Sure i was scared. I thought about my decision every single moment of each day. And I decided to risk what I had regained during my "singlehood". it was a huge sacrifice for me considering that I was happy where I was before he popped the question. And i said to myself, "Why not take the risk? WHo knows... "
AS usual, I was leaving everything to dear ol' FATE. Trying to see where everything will lead us. Go with the flow. However way you put it.
Is that such a mistake?
I thought about things. Really.
I was even open to the posibility that we won't last.
Sure I love him but it doesn't necessarily mean that we'd end up together.
"If we're meant to be, then we're meant to be."
"and if we're not, then we're not...."
Only Krishna knows the answer to this one.
why is it when we love someone, we always feel rejected if he wont text. Or we feel rejected, taken for granted the moment we feel that he doesn't care at all.
Would you believe someone if he says I love you so much and I miss you and his actions tell you otherwise?
Im almost done understanding and being patient.
im on the verge of quitting..
but i dont know why im still holding on.
MArtyr genes, I loathe you!
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