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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Separation Anxiety

Four days to go before the NLE(Nursing Licensure Exam). I still don't know where I will be taking it. They said the list will be posted two days before the 29th. I am anxious more than ever. I think I'm having moderate anxiety because I seem to have my perspective narrowing. I also seem to forget what I just learned.
A few days more and all these will be over. Again, I have to say goodbye to those wonderful people I met and knew in our review. But as I've learned before, goodbye doesn't really mean the end of our friendship, does it? Although I am fully aware of the fact that we will be seeing each other again, I still can't help but feel a little separation anxiety. My new friends and I have been together almost everyday for a couple of months now. Within those months, I relearned that it doesn't really matter where you came from. Or what school I studied in. Or how filthy rich some of our co-reviewees are. Or even how smart someone is. It's how you treat people that matters.
Among the team of the SLRC reviewers, I rank Mr. John Gil Ricafort as my number 1favorite, Mr. Darius Candelario as my no. 2 and Mr. John Teodoro as 3rd favorite. I love Mr. Ricafort!!! I really am going to miss him so much! Their faces are forever imprinted in my memory. And I will never hesitate to approach them whenever I see them in any part of this world. I am really grateful with all our reviewers. I learned a lot from them. They made those difficult, brain cell depleting and mindboggling Med-surg and Psychiatric lessons easy. I understood ECG interpretation and those other diseases only in our review. Really, I'm not kidding. Those Clinical teachers should exert more effort in teaching their students. Instead of making our lives and the future students' lives a living hell. Wouldn't it be embarrassing if their graduates didn't really learn anything from their teachers but rather on self study and reportings? Yes, I do understand that it's modular but not all students will learn every important fact from studying alone. ECG and those complicated topics should be explained thoroughly.
Anyway, I'm going to miss my co-reviewees. They're not just that. They have become my friends, too. I'm going to miss the days that we have spent together, the laughter and all the things that made us laugh and cry. ohhhh!(Puppy face amd tears)
I am grateful to God that He made our paths cross. And for giving us such, SUCH WONDERFUL and FUNNY teachers. And most especially, for the guidance and blessing He will bestow upon us come saturday and sunday.
God Bless us all! First timers and retakers. I hope this would be the last time for us to take the NLE.

xx

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Is it time to grow up?

Is it time to grow up?

I have a long list of wants in my life. My current obsession is the Promod Boots. A few days ago, I asked my Tiyo Nito if it's possible for him to buy me those boots. He said yes. I didn't tell him the price, of course. He'd probably faint if he'd know. Anyway, after days of dreaming about those boots, he finally gave me the money to buy them. He still doesn't know how much it costs. He gave me enough money to last me through December. He also told me not to ask for allowance from my mother anymore. I have been excited for days to buy them. But I realized that I don't need the boots right now. Maybe I'd just have to wait for the store to have their yearly clearance sale. Maybe then I could get the boots at a lesser price. But if that day comes and it's already gone, I guess it's not for me.

I was in Natio Ayala last Saturday with Eric. I passed a middle adult woman with her grandson. He was holding a toy. Kana gani you'd write on it and ma-erase ra pod siya? I don't know what's it called. Anyway, the little boy went to his ate and showed her the thing and asked, "Ate, pila ni siya?" The girl smiled but before she could respond the boy asked her, "Mahal na siya?" She smiled again and said yes. The boy looked crushed. And it only costs Php119.

And looking at the boy's expression crushed my heart, too. I had been lucky. When I was his age, I almost always get what I want. From toys to chocolates. I never really thought about the other kids who have almost nothing. Understandably, I still hadn't developed my Superego. I felt sorry for that kid. I still do. I wish I could have done something. This is exactly the kind of regret that I don't want to have. It makes me feel like a selfish and a lesser person. Especially now that I'm obsessing with those expensive boots and some people don't even have anything decent to eat. For the longest time, I have been wasting money. Not even thinking that they don't just grow on trees. Sometimes I do think about how my family works hard to give me a better life. Better than what they had when they were my age. But sometimes, when I am away from home, I tend to forget. And I know it's not right.

A few days to go and I'll be taking the NLE. After that, I will be forced to be responsible for myself, to grow up. Even if I don't want to. I have to. Whatever the result of the exam, I have to fend for myself na. No more wasting time. It's time to give back what was given to me.

PAYBACK.

Is it time to grow up?

Maybe. I don't know.

whole year wish list

yeah i know.. my cousin, espee posted her own christmas list. Manundog ko!!

che!

I just got back from AYala. SALE! unfortunately, i dont have the right to ask for shopping money. Coz obviously if they do, i'd just spent em on useless things. Like my purple boots that i got from Promod earlier this year. I only wore it inside the car on our way to Burauen, Leyte and the day before my father's bday. It's purple! lisud kau ang pgmix and match..

anyway, we went inside Promod to check their new boot collection. being fall and all.. I FELL IN LOVE with their new style.. UGG-like boots I tell you.. I LAVEEETT jd! i fitted it. size 38. sakto jud kaau!! LAVEEETT!! I had it reserved.. hopefully I'd be able to buy it.. SPONSORS!!!

I feel feverish just thinking about those black boots... hmmmm...

thats number 1 on my list.. this pair looks good with leggings or tights. and its not init to wear..

2. Twilight books.. all four.. and we do have tickets for the movie..weee... 1st screening.. hehe



3. SIDEKICK...



4. SLR...any will do... basta SLR.. hehe

5. DAvao and Manila trips. family members required.. hehe its gonna be the funnest and most memorable trip of our lives.. im gonna drive y'all insane.. hehehe

I change my mind.. the boots are number 2 on my list... NUMBER 1 : Passing the board exam.. hopefully.... unta jud!! please lang..

make this a whole life wishlist... tsk tsk tsk...

this is the UGG boots that i absolutely adore!!!