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Falling in love has been one of the greatest things that ever happened to me this year. I am so happy in love that I feel the people in Facebook are annoyed by the constant display of affection that my, uhmm, boyfriend and I post.. Hahahaha, I'm still in the process of getting used to saying that word.
Nevertheless, the mere fact that I "finally" have someone to call my own never fails to make me smile.
The details of how we came about is limited to the people who I care enough to explain it to. I really don't want to indulge people. You know, it's perfectly healthy to keep a few things to ourselves. The perennial public display of corniness is enough. I feel like people are starting to gag anyway.
A couple of months ago, I blogged about how I want his year to turn out, I wrote:

"... and I would move mountains just to relearn what falling in love and being loved felt like."

"... and I really do want to make it a year filled with wonderful beginnings."

Wonderful beginning, it is. Every time I think about it, it makes me smile and giddy as a school girl. I bet people can see a slight change in me. I guess I am happier. Well, I am now than I was a month ago.
And if there's any good that a scarred person like me could ever get out of this relationship aside from love and happiness, it's the ability to trust a person once again. Trusting him with my heart which I failed to do the past couple of years.Let's not get into that. Haha
I have learned a lot about pain, happiness, love and life the past weeks. Everything happened so fast that sometimes I stop and ask myself if it's really real. And this I have to say, "You don't have to eat the entire cake just to know how it tastes." Well, it is. haha And every time I say the words I love you, it amazes me just how I truly mean it. In short, love has turned me into a major cheese ball. haha Cousins and friends have texted, pm'd and personally told me just how super corny my status updates and tweets are. And of course, they also asked me why the hell are my posts in Tagalog. Well, I blame it on Twitter not because boyfie is one. ahaha I thank the heavens above for creating copy-paste. Unsaon ta man, ako Tagalog, kindergarten level ra jud. Mao ra ang kaya sa ako brain.
Did I mention that I am at my happiest now? Oh  yeah, I did. Some might say that love or being in a relationship is not easy-breezy. I know. Basta right now, I can't complain. hahaha I am, after all, happy. I just wish I'd grow up. bwahaha I am the most immature person I know. haha
oh well.
I bet you can find a gazillion I love you's and I miss you's on my timeline. hahaha Mary Rose Matibag is keeping track. Daisy, as well. Oh noooo.  I really am turning into a major-major corn ball na. Sala jud ni ni Jev!!! hahaha Okay, okay. I won't complain. I am happy baya!!! And I found what I've been looking for.

I guess it's true what they say, that good things come to those who wait.

Pahk. English.

:D

2 months post-op

Sometimes I forget that I had surgery last January until I see the diagonal scar on my upper right abdomen. Too bad, Contractubex doesn't really work. So much for the few hundreds my mother spent on the useless tube of stinky gunk.

Updates and whatnot:

I'm in Leyte now but tomorrow I won't be. haha
Supine position, how I miss you but I'm so used to not being able to do you that I forgot how I loved you.
I am in love with Jev P. Tudio. And in a relationship. MAS CHAAAAAR.

And yes, I finally have above 7 band score on my IELTS exam. THANK GOODNESS.
And no, I really don't know when I'm leaving. haha

It really feels good to finally find someone who loves me for me, flaws and all. Nakakataba ng puso. Haha The late night calls and texts, everything. The distance doesn't really faze me. I don't know why. I am perfectly comfortable with it. Of course, the idea of being together excites me and I really can not deny the fact that I want to be with him. Although not now but soon. I just hope that the universe would conspire for us to be together. (The Alchemist ang peg.)

Even though everything happened so fast, I still don't have regrets because I was able to think things through. The last thing I need is to make half-thought  decisions. And as I've said before, I am ready to love again. And no, just because I was ready doesn't mean that I would be with the first guy who showed interest.

And prior to making the decision, i really did not seek advice from friends and cousins so that when I do make the choice, it's not because I was influenced by other people but because it was my decision. :D And whether the people around me liked it or not, they really don't have enough of a choice but to accept whatever it is that I decided on.

Icing on the cake na lang that they are so happy of the change of status that I have. I'm just glad that I have supporting friends/cousins. At least, kampante ko. And not to mention that i have the most understanding boyfriend ever. hahaha

Bottomline:
Although I really don't know God's plans for us, I still hope that we'd last. :D In love ang peg.
And I am at my happiest right now.

xoxo,
dee

Ready to Love Again - Lady Antebellum

So I guess it's safe to say that I am ready to love again. :D after all these years. Insha-Allah!