The Inner workings of a not-so-idle brain

I long for the day that I would finally board the plane that would take me to the place where I could make my dreams come true.

I am not quite sure as to where just yet. It could be anywhere, so long as I could make things happen, make ends meet, find happiness and live my dreams.

I was never a fan of change.

Why?

Most of the changes that occured in my life brought with them pain, that's why. But I learned to accept them as they come believing that these exist for a lot of reasons. The main thing being to make way for better things and of course, to teach us a few lessons about plans and life.

Everyday, I spend my life daydreaming of that promised land. Greener pasture, ika'nga. Imagining my life with a good-paying job, unmarried and being able to provide for myself and my family and being able to give them more.

I am waiting for that once chance this year. It does not matter if I won't be able to work as a nurse. Any work will do, as long as I am earning more than the typical nurses here in the Philippines. And as long as it won't make me lose my dignity, I would take any job.

I want to know how it feels to finally help out my parents, to see them happy and just be free from debt and financial problems.

I have dreams of my own, to live my life the way I want to, to buy everything I want, to travel around the world and to complete the list, to see my parents and the rest of my family happy.

Making them happy is not difficult. We are genetically a happy family. And I just wish I could do that soon. I want to make my loved ones' lives easy and comfortable. I don't want them to worry about paying bills or food. Instead I want them to enjoy their lives, especially my parents and Nanay Onon. They have sacrificed a lot for me and it's only right to give back what they gave up for me.

Dili nako makahuwat na muabot ang panahon na mabuhat ni nako tanan. I'm sure, malipay jud sila Nanay.

Kanindot siguro noh kung naa nako didto. Madayon siguro ang ako plano na ipaayo amo dirty kitchen and himoon nako na ako apartment (like a garage apartment). Total bitaw, ang CR na man lang ang gigamit didto. :D Then my old room would be the guest room. Haha. Lisura magdamgo na ga-mata noh?

Pero, who knows aparador, mahinayon na. Malooy ang Ginoo. :D

Malipay na jud si Nanay Naida na mahunong na siya sa sugal namo na panginabuhi. Makalingkawas na siya ug tinaplanay sa mga alkanse sa isda ug sa mga utang sa mga taw na nahalimtan na sama sa panahon nga milabay. Basin pa diay, nasa lahi na negosyo ug dili sa pagpangisda ang amo swerte. Kung unsa na, wala pa ko masayod. Busa ako nanginkamot sa pag-ampo ngadto sa Ginoo na usabon na ang swerte sa ako kinabuhi.

As I've said earlier sa ako blog, I was never a fan of change. Pero kung buot huna-hunaon, mao ra kini ang constant thing diri sa kalibutan. Kanunay ang kausaban. Dili kana malalis. Pero kinahanglan man. But if it's for my own good, why not, dba?

Sa pagkakaron, I want my life to change direction. Or maybe the right words are to have a direction.

You see, I have been living my life with eyes close for over a year now. Aw, murag since I graduated from college diay. Didto nagsugod ug lihay ang direksyon sa ako kinabuhi.

Matud pa ni Robert Frost sa iyahang poem:

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

I took the less convenient road, just to put that lightly, ha. I took the shameful road to unemployment. It was notsomuch as my own choice, my parents had something to do with it. There were job opportunities abroad that were presented to me. But my parents, being idealistic as they were, wanted me to choose a job that would give me almost instant gratification. I guess they were fans of fairy tales. I guess my grandparents never told them that these tales of happily ever after do not exist in the real world. They wanted me to seek greener pastures.

That's their reason.

And I have mine. And I won't disclose it here. :D

I know myself enough that I would take the road less traveled by. And I know for a fact that it would make all the difference. I have always been a risk-taker. I have always been the type of girl that would do things as she pleases. Of course, there are times that I have reservations about certain things but in the end, I would almost always choose my heart's desires.

I just feel like letting go of all the stereotypes. Kuha mo? I just want to let go of it all. To make it clearer, maghatag ko ug examples.

• Being an RN. DAPAT jud ka mu-abroad para dako ug sweldo.
• Living abroad. Dili bantog naa ka sa gawas ga-puyo, adunahan naka.

Ug uban pa. Dili na lang kaayo nako i-elaborate kay medyo taas na kaayo ug basin malibak na sad ko tungod ani. LOL

Basta mao ra toh.

Mao na ang mga butang na ga-lutaw-lutaw sa akong alimpatakan karon.

HULING HIRIT:

Usually, raba ang magsige ug buot-buot ug istorya kay ang mga taw na pareha nako, walay trabaho ug walay lingaw (I'm not saying na in-ana ko. Kamo na la'y sabot kay basin naa nasa'y mga taw na lahion pagsabot. I can never be too careful with my words.) or if naa sa'y trabaho, dili kaayo busy kay magsige ra ug tabi (Naka-igo ko? Again, wala ko'y gipadungog-dungog ha. Nakit-an ra na nako sa OPM: ORIGINAL PILIPINO MOVIES. Cheesy, I know. )

Anyway, lezmobon wid awer laybs.

Happy Sunday everyone and HAPPY FIESTA SR. SANTIAGO (ALBUERA)!!!