Aal izz well

Let me share a few things about the first Bollywood film I have seen. It’s called 3 Idiots. I am not going to give a full film review but what I’m about to do is blog about how this movie affected me and inspired me the moment I saw it.

While watching the movie, I laughed, I cried ,and I laughed and cried at the same time. The movie never failed to express inspiration, humor and drama. The only downside, I think, is that it is a lengthy movie (common for Bollywood films) that when I reached its second half, it was kind of overbearing because it has a lot of dramatic scenes and incidents that if you miss it by a few heartbeats, you won’t get the story anymore.

However, lengthy or not, 3 Idiots has found a niche in my heart. Not only do I find Aamir Khan gorgeous but the movie has its number of lessons as well. Also, I love all their songs with Zoobie Doo taking the top spot in my heart. :D I took a liking to “Aal izz well” as well. Aside from its feel good tune and their facial expressions, it successfully conveyed the message that it tried to pass to its listeners.. And who could miss the melancholy that “Give me some sunshine” imparts?

What I like most about Rancho’s character is his attitude towards life. He believes in doing things the simpler way. I know, the movie is idealistic. It’s too good to be true. But hey, we all need someone or something to make us remember the simple things in life, that most of the time we fail to recognize them.

The movie made me think about what I went through back in college. Although I did not experience all the things in the movie, I do think that every student has his/her share of problems. May it be about their families, friends, relationships and school. People’s problems may differ from one another but there’s one thing that they can do to surpass them, believe that everything will work out fine in the end.

But it all comes down to this, we need our families, friends and loved ones to survive every heartbreaking situation in our lives. They do not only give us strength and inspiration but knowing that they are there for us in enough to help us make it through. Another thing, the movie also inspires us to be honest with ourselves, that if we are, it wouldn’t be hard for us to show other people who and what we are, maybe then it would help them understand why we are the way we are.

One last thing, it also sends us the message that although success is important, sometimes it is not what we have or where we are now that determine how successful we are, but how we treat our fellow human beings.

This movie is by far, one of the movies that have affected me in more ways than one.

I still have a lot of things on my mind about the movie but I guess I have to end here. I will, however, relate this movie to my future posts, if possible.

xoxo,

dee

Ang Kamingaw

There's no need for some fancy introductions for this blog. And I will try not to add more drama than the photos already show. But I will say one thing and one thing only.

"Gimingaw na ko nimo. I mean, I miss you everyday but I just miss you more today."

I think I could use a bit of drama right now.

Maybe, just a lit---tle bit.

I miss the things that we used to do together. (*mental block right there.)

So I'll just enumerate what I could remember.

• watching movies in Ayala
• text flooding. you know how that irritates me.
• eating out.
• the times when we go on impromptu drinking sessions, just the two of us.
• the talks we had about anything and everything

When you were here in Cebu, and I was in Leyte, and when Irene was, too, I've always had a partner. And then both of you left. Now, I'm left to my own devices. I am not close-minded, I have a lot of friends, I know that. But nothing and no one compares to you both. It's with you that I can truly be myself, no inhibitions, no restraints, no nothing. I could just be... ME.

I can say what's on my mind, no filters, no edits, no rewrites, all raw and real.

It's with you that I could not ask for far better friends. when we're together, even if it's just the two of us (Irene and me or Eric and me), we don't seek for other people's company.

Like we used to say, "Mabuhi ra ta kita ra duha. Malingaw ra ta. Wala pay arte, wala pa'y problema."

This is how I feel right now. But who knows, this may change. Afterall, change is the only constant thing in this world. :D

xoxo,

dee

The Inner workings of a not-so-idle brain

I long for the day that I would finally board the plane that would take me to the place where I could make my dreams come true.

I am not quite sure as to where just yet. It could be anywhere, so long as I could make things happen, make ends meet, find happiness and live my dreams.

I was never a fan of change.

Why?

Most of the changes that occured in my life brought with them pain, that's why. But I learned to accept them as they come believing that these exist for a lot of reasons. The main thing being to make way for better things and of course, to teach us a few lessons about plans and life.

Everyday, I spend my life daydreaming of that promised land. Greener pasture, ika'nga. Imagining my life with a good-paying job, unmarried and being able to provide for myself and my family and being able to give them more.

I am waiting for that once chance this year. It does not matter if I won't be able to work as a nurse. Any work will do, as long as I am earning more than the typical nurses here in the Philippines. And as long as it won't make me lose my dignity, I would take any job.

I want to know how it feels to finally help out my parents, to see them happy and just be free from debt and financial problems.

I have dreams of my own, to live my life the way I want to, to buy everything I want, to travel around the world and to complete the list, to see my parents and the rest of my family happy.

Making them happy is not difficult. We are genetically a happy family. And I just wish I could do that soon. I want to make my loved ones' lives easy and comfortable. I don't want them to worry about paying bills or food. Instead I want them to enjoy their lives, especially my parents and Nanay Onon. They have sacrificed a lot for me and it's only right to give back what they gave up for me.

Dili nako makahuwat na muabot ang panahon na mabuhat ni nako tanan. I'm sure, malipay jud sila Nanay.

Kanindot siguro noh kung naa nako didto. Madayon siguro ang ako plano na ipaayo amo dirty kitchen and himoon nako na ako apartment (like a garage apartment). Total bitaw, ang CR na man lang ang gigamit didto. :D Then my old room would be the guest room. Haha. Lisura magdamgo na ga-mata noh?

Pero, who knows aparador, mahinayon na. Malooy ang Ginoo. :D

Malipay na jud si Nanay Naida na mahunong na siya sa sugal namo na panginabuhi. Makalingkawas na siya ug tinaplanay sa mga alkanse sa isda ug sa mga utang sa mga taw na nahalimtan na sama sa panahon nga milabay. Basin pa diay, nasa lahi na negosyo ug dili sa pagpangisda ang amo swerte. Kung unsa na, wala pa ko masayod. Busa ako nanginkamot sa pag-ampo ngadto sa Ginoo na usabon na ang swerte sa ako kinabuhi.

As I've said earlier sa ako blog, I was never a fan of change. Pero kung buot huna-hunaon, mao ra kini ang constant thing diri sa kalibutan. Kanunay ang kausaban. Dili kana malalis. Pero kinahanglan man. But if it's for my own good, why not, dba?

Sa pagkakaron, I want my life to change direction. Or maybe the right words are to have a direction.

You see, I have been living my life with eyes close for over a year now. Aw, murag since I graduated from college diay. Didto nagsugod ug lihay ang direksyon sa ako kinabuhi.

Matud pa ni Robert Frost sa iyahang poem:

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

I took the less convenient road, just to put that lightly, ha. I took the shameful road to unemployment. It was notsomuch as my own choice, my parents had something to do with it. There were job opportunities abroad that were presented to me. But my parents, being idealistic as they were, wanted me to choose a job that would give me almost instant gratification. I guess they were fans of fairy tales. I guess my grandparents never told them that these tales of happily ever after do not exist in the real world. They wanted me to seek greener pastures.

That's their reason.

And I have mine. And I won't disclose it here. :D

I know myself enough that I would take the road less traveled by. And I know for a fact that it would make all the difference. I have always been a risk-taker. I have always been the type of girl that would do things as she pleases. Of course, there are times that I have reservations about certain things but in the end, I would almost always choose my heart's desires.

I just feel like letting go of all the stereotypes. Kuha mo? I just want to let go of it all. To make it clearer, maghatag ko ug examples.

• Being an RN. DAPAT jud ka mu-abroad para dako ug sweldo.
• Living abroad. Dili bantog naa ka sa gawas ga-puyo, adunahan naka.

Ug uban pa. Dili na lang kaayo nako i-elaborate kay medyo taas na kaayo ug basin malibak na sad ko tungod ani. LOL

Basta mao ra toh.

Mao na ang mga butang na ga-lutaw-lutaw sa akong alimpatakan karon.

HULING HIRIT:

Usually, raba ang magsige ug buot-buot ug istorya kay ang mga taw na pareha nako, walay trabaho ug walay lingaw (I'm not saying na in-ana ko. Kamo na la'y sabot kay basin naa nasa'y mga taw na lahion pagsabot. I can never be too careful with my words.) or if naa sa'y trabaho, dili kaayo busy kay magsige ra ug tabi (Naka-igo ko? Again, wala ko'y gipadungog-dungog ha. Nakit-an ra na nako sa OPM: ORIGINAL PILIPINO MOVIES. Cheesy, I know. )

Anyway, lezmobon wid awer laybs.

Happy Sunday everyone and HAPPY FIESTA SR. SANTIAGO (ALBUERA)!!!

When I rode the jeep today

After my mock exams this afternoon, I decided to walk my way to Robi and ride 06B or any jeep that would take me home to Guadalupe.

Cebu, its streets, the jeepneys, the cars, the people, its weather, the traffic--- these are the factors that affect my decisions everyday.

Today was no different. If it looks safe (no CITOM) for me to cross, I would. Otherwise, I wouldn't. If it was raining, I would take a cab. If not, I would walk.

Little choices.

Usually, walking alone along Gen. Maxilom triggers my Emo side. Well, notsomuch as emo but it gets me to thinking about so many things like:

• how my review went
• co-reviewees
• our speakers
• my actual exam
• how I wasted so much time, etc

When I rode the jeep today, it got me to thinking about a lot of things. Some things I'd rather keep to myself. TRUST ME, you don't wanna know the things that go on in my head.

Anyway.

Seeing the streets of Cebu, wet from the rain, with people riding bicycles, some waiting for their jeeps, people selling everything from DVDs to barbecue--- a scene from one of my favorite Indie films comes to mind. That film among other things stirred a lot of emotions, frustrations and dreams inside of me.

Movies. They're just movies, some might say. But those movies that touch your very soul are the ones worth watching a hundred times.

That movie, roused a longing in me that I know I hav to fulfill. Sooner or later, I have to for my sanity, for myself.

And when I rode the jeep today, as I passed by familiar buildings:Chowking, Rajah Park Hotel, McDo, Watson's, Anita's, Visayan, Red Ribbon, CDU Med Building, CDUH, Bo's, the Boulevard; it felt like someone pulled down a string of college memories and drowned me in them.

Memories, bad and good, never fail to make me smile.

Good memories make me smile for obvious reasons, they're good.

Bad ones make me smile because without them, I would have been the same naive girl seven years ago.

What's that saying about people never changing...?

Oh yeah.

People don't change.

But they do, especially if they want to.

I, for one, did.

Technically, I am still that same girl butmy perspective, my preferences have changed. I have learned from every wrong decision, every wrong turn I made, even the unfavorable things that have happened to me, say, rejection, disloyalty, desertion and of course, heartbreaks.

I've said this before and I'm saying it again, I learned to see the glass as half-full.

As they always say,

That which does not kill us makes us stronger.

When I rode the jeep today, I realized that who and how I am now is not a far cry from who and how I was back in college. I am still the same girl and a lot more. Certain things may have changed the way I view things but I still possess the same gusto I have way back then.

I may not have gotten out of the wars I fought unscathed but I survived and I learned.

And most of all, I moved on without so much as a thought from the people who said Adieu.

xoxo,

dee

You don't always have to make lemonade

There were seven deaths (that I am aware of) in our barangay in the last four months. One was a tragedy and the rest we consider redemption. Freedom from pain, illness and problems.

Death used to be a scary thing for most of us. No one ever came back from it and told wonderful stories. Not that anyone ever came back, period. Now, it is considered as almost funny. Almost, in respect to the bereaved family.

What made it almost funny was that, the last three deaths occured less than 24 hours after the funeral of the last dead person. And a few minutes before the last funeral, another person died and before his Novena ended, another person died. And by far, she was the last of the list. And I hope it stays that way for another year.

A few people even joked that no one should bury the last person who died so that no one would follow. Haha. (Wow. That was a dark joke. Boo.)

The deaths of my loved ones taught me a lot of things about people, life, death and life after death and my attitude towards everything that has happened in the last four months.

I viewed Nang Inday's death as a tragedy. It was untimely, for me. But I know and I understand that it was part of God's plans. I accepted that. Somehow.

The death of Tiya Carmen was a redemption for me. For years she had suffered a lot. The last months of her life was painful not only for her but also for all of us who could see the pain that she'd gone through.

Lolo Odon's passing was somehow a transition from this life to another. Somehow I understood it as a part of life. He had been in this world far longer than any of us have and it's only right for him to go on.

Death is inevitable. We can dodge it. But we can not escape it. No one really can. And the exciting part is we don't really know when we'd go.

Right now, I just want to enjoy my life with my family and close friends. Seize the day.

Live. Love. Laugh.

Eat. Pray. Love.

Upon reading this, one must think that I am ready to die.

But I am not. I still have to have a good-paying job and help pay my family's debt and backpack around Europe and Asia. And maybe, just maybe fall in love and have kids and to actually see them grow and be the persons they want to be.

But these are only my plans. God has his own for me and I think I just have to wait and see and decide.

You see, when life gives you lemons, you don't always have to make lemonade. There are a whole lot of things you can do with lemons. :D

Do I make sense? Haha