As some of the most important people in my life know, a very memorable event took place a few days ago and with that came a few significant choices. They have been placed in front of me and I had to make decisions right then and there. I was only given a couple of hours to actually think about what I want to say and do in the next few months, possibly years.
Yes or No choice is sometimes the most difficult choice a person could ever make. And sometimes I wish someone could make that for me. But since I was a kid I've fought for my right to make my own decisions and choices so why change the way things are now, right? But I had enough respect for my family that I actually seeked their advice. Months before, my family, specifically, my parents and I have talked about this and what's my say on the matter and theirs. And we have reached a mutual decision. I had to start somewhere. I guess this opportunity is where that somewhere is.
Fast track to now. The choices have been presented and the decisions have been made. It's still a long way to go, a lot of things could happen but I am forever optimistic. I am placing my trust and my life in God's hands. I know that these are our plans but his are greater than ours. One can only hope.
As Eric said: In-sha-Allah.
God-willing.
I know this is crazy but I can see myself in the next few months. I just hope God and I have the same vision. But still, one can only hope. Every night before I go to sleep, when I'm on my bed thanking God, praying, asking for forgiveness and hoping for things to turn out better, I would I ask Him to give me this one thing that I truly want.
I just hope that He would.
Maybe then, if He would, I could finally move forward.
xoxo,
dee
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